LIFE................

2day.....in the counselling method 2 tutorial class...
tutor asked us to draw out our life line.....
all the events ,people which are really bring an impact to us......
i closed my eyes and think.......
then i started to draw.......
thare is a lot of events and people in my life are really influence me....
no matter my personality, thinking, belief system or my emotion....
a lots........

i still remember the 1st day i went to kindergarten....it was a happy memory...
i still remember when i am having my 1st surgery.....i am crying and how the doctor tried to comfort me.....
i still remember the feeling of losing someone that is very important in my life.....it is a feeling of helpless......
i still remember how i cooperate with my peers to complete something that is impossible....that is the feeling of success......
i still remember my 1st step to University....the 1st person that i met.....that is the feeling of strange......
i still remember my 1st relationship with the guy........eventhough i hope that i can forget....
i still remember who is standing beside me when i am really down........and how i am hurting him....
i still remember..............................


life is uncertainty..........which i can control and out of my control....
life is uncertainty..........which going up and going down.....
life is uncertainty..........which we don't know what is going on in the next second.....
life is uncertainty..........which someone will stay and someone will gone....
LIFE................this is LIFE........
i am trying to accept the reality of LIFE...........
i am still trying.........


i put a big question mark to my future.....
i am not sure with what i am doing now.....
i am not sure what i am going 2 decide.....
i am not sure..............
i miss those time when i have a clearer picture about my future....
i miss those time when i am still know how to dream....
now all gone....and i am lost.....lost the way to future........
hope i will find my direction.......tell me which road should i take......


ALL THE BEST TO ME......AND YOU......