平凡的快乐

嗯。。。今天是快乐的。。。

星期六早上需要上课。。
发现自己异常的精神。。
所以我快乐。。。

与学长姐见面。。。
发现他们很亲切。。。
所以我快乐。。。

学会跟不熟悉的人分享。。。
发现那感觉还不错。。
所以我快乐。。。

两个小时的午餐。。。
发现我们聊得不亦乐乎。。
所以我快乐。。。

巧遇既熟悉又生疏的朋友。。。
发现他们的幽默。。
所以我快乐。。。

下雨天的旁晚。。
躺在床上睡着了。。
所以我快乐。。

今天的快乐。。。很简单。。。
没有大起大落的心情。。。
只有平凡的快乐。。。
我发现。。。我爱上了这样的快乐。。。

an idiot here......

Another day without sleep.........
hahahaha.............
should i cry? NO.....i should laugh...............
because i am idoit what.......hahahahahaha.....

借来的空闲。。。

允许我用一点点的时间来记录我今天的心情。。。

最近的精神真的没有很好。。。
那天自己去print assignment 时。。
脑里想了太多事情。。。交通灯亮着红灯。。。
我竟然冲了过去。。。替自己的慌神捏了一把冷汗。。。
庆幸着自己还是安全的。。。

话说今天。。。小车车还是被撞了一下。。。
不是我慌神。。也不是我没有注意。。。
而是别人没有注意。。。不过车上的人都没事。。。
真的又要多庆幸一次。。。可是心情还是被影响了。。。。



今天去找小哥哥。。。。
四个小时的来回车程。。。在没有睡觉的情况下开车。。。真的是折磨。。。
哥说。。。我可以不用那么辛苦非要把东西拿过去。。。
想想。。。。或许把东西拿过去只是次要了吧。。。
这几个星期充满疲惫，抱怨，压抑的情况下。。。
我或许真的很想见见我的家人吧。。。
那一个小时的吃饭时间。。。。我真的什么都忘了想。。。。。
很轻松的。。。真的很轻松的。。。。多久。。没那么轻松了。。。
虽然只有一个小时。。。。
几个星期。。。紧绷着自己的思绪。。。
很多很多的事情还有未完成的功课在脑里不停不停转。。。
累。。真的很累。。。
四小时的疲惫换来一小时的松懈。。我觉得。。。很值得。。。。
因为我又有活力奋斗了。。。
可是却有点对不起美眉。。。。你应该很累吧。。。



谢谢哥。。。。。。我知道你很疼我。。。。。
不管以前或现在还是未来。。。你都想给我最好的。。。。
我感受到的。。。
我是几百年修来的福啊。。才能换来一个那么好的哥哥。。。。
真的。。。。真的。。。。。。我会很珍惜这一切的。。。


好了。。。廖秋婷！！向前冲吧。。。。
选择了以后就不能轻易放弃。。。。
担起了以后就不能随意卸下。。。。
挨过了。。。那就会是体会。。。。。
冲吧！！

好想。。。。

好想回家。。。。。。。。。。。。。
好想好想。。。。。。。。。。。


好想你。。。。。。。。。。。
好想好想。。。。。。。。。。。。。


头很痛。。。。胃很痛。。。。。
很多很多事情还没完成。。。。。。。。。
再给我多点力量。。。再给我多点能耐。。。好吗？？

TIRED

i am tired..............
i am tired..............
iam tired...............

happy birthday to my little gor gor

i am really tired NOW............
my mind is stop functioning................
and a lot of stuff need to complete in a short period......
i want to scream....i want to bite people....i want to.................arh.........&@(*@*
hope my body still can affort....praying for not getting sick again and again....
please....T.T



today is my brother birthday........
gor gor.....thanks for being my brother.....
and i am very proud to be ur little sister.....sincrely....
u give me a lot of things in my life....uncountable.....
and u take good care on me....i appreciate it very much...
every single thing and every single advise from u....
gor gor....happy birthday and may all your dreams will come true soon.....
take a break when u are really stress...
love u.....

新年快乐

一个星期的假期。。。终于。。回到了自己的岗位上。。。
忙碌的日子还在前面。。。很想逃避这一切。。。
但是。。我不能。。。。。。。加油吧。。。



昨天。。。去了KLIA。。。送琳离开到Australia。。。。
有点不舍。。希望她一切顺利。。。
当她离开后。。我对她男朋友说了一句“加油。。”
他的回答是一句很肯定的“sure”。。。
突然自己有所感触。。。。为什么。。我没有他有的那种坚定。。。
为什么身边的朋友。。。都选择相信。。选择等待。。选择守护。。
而我。。。选择了放弃。。。。。
在他们身上看到的坚定。。。仿佛是对我自己的讽刺。。。
很想对你说。。。。对不起。。。我对自己没把握。。。。。。
对不起。。。。。。。我连等待的勇气都没有。。。。。
对不起。。。。。。。。。。我没办法像他们那样。。。
很坚定的说。。。我会等。。。。
因为我知道当我说不的时候。。我等于抹杀了一切。。。。。
包括我们的关系。。。。。。。
偶尔想起你。。。。还是会难过。。。但是我知道。。。
我已经痊愈了。。。。
日子还是疯疯癫癫的在过。。。。
我的笑。。。依然无所不在。。。。
在没有你的天空。。。我依然是我。。。日子也一样在过。。。
我会让自己更好的。。。。。。=）


好啦。。。还在过新年呢。。。。
祝福怎能少了呢？？

大家在新的一年里要更更更快乐哦。。。。
我会更爱更爱更爱你们的。。。。。muakzss。。。。哈哈。。

release.......

yesterday night...i was attended the reunion night which organised by Buddist society....
it was great......it give me a sense of being home.....
very warm...very comfortable....very relax.....
with those games, cute dancing, joke.........
b4 that....i am just like a bettery without energy.....
feeling of stress...feeling of lost....feeling of worry...
all come together.......just because of the unfinish assignment, FYP, internship.....
after joining the activity...i feel that i am released.....
released all the stress .....released all the unhappy feeling.....
i am fully charge......
thanks BS society for the fun night....
and i am proud to be the member of this society....


i am really tired now....wanna sleep liao....
later will go for a movie....^@^

LIFE................

2day.....in the counselling method 2 tutorial class...
tutor asked us to draw out our life line.....
all the events ,people which are really bring an impact to us......
i closed my eyes and think.......
then i started to draw.......
thare is a lot of events and people in my life are really influence me....
no matter my personality, thinking, belief system or my emotion....
a lots........

i still remember the 1st day i went to kindergarten....it was a happy memory...
i still remember when i am having my 1st surgery.....i am crying and how the doctor tried to comfort me.....
i still remember the feeling of losing someone that is very important in my life.....it is a feeling of helpless......
i still remember how i cooperate with my peers to complete something that is impossible....that is the feeling of success......
i still remember my 1st step to University....the 1st person that i met.....that is the feeling of strange......
i still remember my 1st relationship with the guy........eventhough i hope that i can forget....
i still remember who is standing beside me when i am really down........and how i am hurting him....
i still remember..............................


life is uncertainty..........which i can control and out of my control....
life is uncertainty..........which going up and going down.....
life is uncertainty..........which we don't know what is going on in the next second.....
life is uncertainty..........which someone will stay and someone will gone....
LIFE................this is LIFE........
i am trying to accept the reality of LIFE...........
i am still trying.........


i put a big question mark to my future.....
i am not sure with what i am doing now.....
i am not sure what i am going 2 decide.....
i am not sure..............
i miss those time when i have a clearer picture about my future....
i miss those time when i am still know how to dream....
now all gone....and i am lost.....lost the way to future........
hope i will find my direction.......tell me which road should i take......


ALL THE BEST TO ME......AND YOU......

wOrry...............

worry....
worry about 2mr....
i lost my foundation result which is very important to create my resume for my internship....
i am waiting for a answer from my friend about the internship....
i am thinking about my FYP........because my supervisor said now is too early to start.....
i am thinking of little thong thong.....she is getting a very serious emotional change after her mummy gave born to her little brother.......
worry.....worry and worry..........
hopefully i can get the new printed foundation result from FGO and it may not take a long peroid to process it....
hopefully i can get the answer that i want from my friend about the internship....
hopefully my supervisor won't ignore us and get to start to supervise us in our FYP.....
hopefully thong thong will understand what is happen and become the one who i miss the most....
i wish....i wish........may god bless me.....
all the best for 2mr............go go fighting.....


busy life is starting......are u ready????